You may not know this about me, but I have a bit of a self-esteem problem. Not overly bad- I mean, I still leave my house without a bag on my head. Sometimes, I'll get down a bit and while I'm showering or putting on mascara, I'll wonder, to myself, "Why bother? Why bother painting the pig?"
I get over it, of course and it really isn't debilitating to the point of keeping me hiding in my bed with the covers over my head and hissing at the daylight. Where my major esteem issues come from is creativity. I used to hate to show people my writing (and look at me now, forcing the Interwebs to hold on to it and display it). I used to draw and paint and shortly before I lost that joy in life, I started doing Chinese calligraphy and Chinese brush painting. I wasn't great at it, but I was okay (see, my own worst critic). I did a few things that I deemed worthy of sharing, framed them and gave them as gifts.
Since arthritis, carpal tunnel syndrome, and bursitis have taken my creative joy from me, I have only two things I can do that are any kind of outlet. I write. I write these blogs and I write really bad fiction. I mean seriously bad. I would never submit the fiction I write to any kind of place for publication. I can and have written decent fiction (I've also been rejected by many a fine publication for said fiction). And I take photos. I love taking photos. I have loads of "scenery shots" in various albums (MySpace, Facebook, hosted on my Photobucket).
The other day, I joined a group on the Flickr photo site. You've probably heard of these- the 365 Days photos. The one I joined is for self-portraits. The photo you submit has to have yourself in it in some way- your portrait, a body part. You can hold an old photo of yourself and take a photo- as long as your hand is visible in the photo. I'm sure you get the gist of it.
My kids all have "lives", of a sort. They don't much care about what ol' mom does online. I get very little feedback from them about anything. It isn't like I'm begging for attention, I just want an honest opinion. And the disabled guy. Sheesh. I ask him about a photo and he'll glance over and say, "Looks fine" and go back to watching TV. Sometimes, he'll grunt a reply at me that sounds like: "Iugnossssfine".
So that's what my blog is about today. Please, look at my 365 Days photos on Flickr and tell me if you like them. PLEASE! Stroke my ego! Pat me on the head and tell me I'm cool! PLEASE! I NEED YOUR LOVE! LOVE ME!! LOOOOOOOVE MEEEEEEE!
Patty's Flikr 365 Days Self-Portrait Set
Seriously though, I'd like some decent feedback on my photos.
For a bonus, I'll show you some cute dog pictures.
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I get over it, of course and it really isn't debilitating to the point of keeping me hiding in my bed with the covers over my head and hissing at the daylight. Where my major esteem issues come from is creativity. I used to hate to show people my writing (and look at me now, forcing the Interwebs to hold on to it and display it). I used to draw and paint and shortly before I lost that joy in life, I started doing Chinese calligraphy and Chinese brush painting. I wasn't great at it, but I was okay (see, my own worst critic). I did a few things that I deemed worthy of sharing, framed them and gave them as gifts.
Since arthritis, carpal tunnel syndrome, and bursitis have taken my creative joy from me, I have only two things I can do that are any kind of outlet. I write. I write these blogs and I write really bad fiction. I mean seriously bad. I would never submit the fiction I write to any kind of place for publication. I can and have written decent fiction (I've also been rejected by many a fine publication for said fiction). And I take photos. I love taking photos. I have loads of "scenery shots" in various albums (MySpace, Facebook, hosted on my Photobucket).
The other day, I joined a group on the Flickr photo site. You've probably heard of these- the 365 Days photos. The one I joined is for self-portraits. The photo you submit has to have yourself in it in some way- your portrait, a body part. You can hold an old photo of yourself and take a photo- as long as your hand is visible in the photo. I'm sure you get the gist of it.
My kids all have "lives", of a sort. They don't much care about what ol' mom does online. I get very little feedback from them about anything. It isn't like I'm begging for attention, I just want an honest opinion. And the disabled guy. Sheesh. I ask him about a photo and he'll glance over and say, "Looks fine" and go back to watching TV. Sometimes, he'll grunt a reply at me that sounds like: "Iugnossssfine".
So that's what my blog is about today. Please, look at my 365 Days photos on Flickr and tell me if you like them. PLEASE! Stroke my ego! Pat me on the head and tell me I'm cool! PLEASE! I NEED YOUR LOVE! LOVE ME!! LOOOOOOOVE MEEEEEEE!
Patty's Flikr 365 Days Self-Portrait Set
Seriously though, I'd like some decent feedback on my photos.
For a bonus, I'll show you some cute dog pictures.
